Procrastination

I am the queen of procrastination. The absolute queen. In fact, I've been procrastinating about writing this post all day, and I started it while I was procrastinating about doing work this morning. It's been over an hour from typing that sentence to this. See what I mean about procrastination?

Part of it is I'm just not focused. I have ADHD. Not as bad as my son, but enough. Today is one of the days that I am really unfocused, which is really bad when I have to work on a deadline. And I do. Sometimes I find it amazing how fast I can type 350 words. Right now my record for a 350 word project stands at 11 minutes including proofreading and plagiarism check. Of course I can't do that for all my projects, but ones that have subjects that I have written about a zillion times, not a problem.

But the past couple of days it's really started to be a problem. I know why it is. I'm tired. I'm more than tired. I'm exhausted. I'm exhausted from start to finish from the time I wake up to the time I go to bed.

Not only am I physically tired, I'm emotionally tired. I'm tired of being the one who has to do everything all the time every day. I spend hours writing, and let me tell you it's not easy. Then I get asked can I walk to the library, when am I going to walk to the laundry mat and do laundry, when am I going to get groceries, what's for dinner, and oh, by the way honey can you get me this $75 dollar thing that I want? And then, there are other things that just don't happen because it's just one more job, and when I am exhausted down to the bone and I can't even work up the interest to be interested. And frankly, guilt trips don't help the matter.

So all this is goes towards explaining why I'm the queen of procrastination. That procrastination is part of why I haven't blogged in a while.

Now I'm going to finish my oatmeal and fruit and go to bed. I'm actually going to sleep in tomorrow to. Instead of waking up at 5:30 I'm going to get up at 6:30. I'm so excited about that.

Not Nearly Enough Sleep

I haven't been getting enough sleep. I know a lot of it is my own fault and I have no one to blame but myself, but there it is.

Part of the way I can tell that I'm not getting enough sleep, other than the general feeling of exhaustion, is that I am weepy at *everything*. And I do mean everything. I was watching Fantasia 2000 and every single video made me want to cry. Even the funny flamingos.

 

How in the heck this can make me cry I don't know, but it did.

It's probably that I am remembering taking my son to see it. We lived in Bloomington IN then, I was going to IU, and we were members of the zoo. I had a membership for years and we went to the zoo all the time. This is important because as part of that membership we were able to get discounts at the White River IMAX theater. That's where we saw Fantasia 2000. It was The Boy, my mom and me. It was a lot of fun. It was huge. The Boy loved it.

DH got me the Fantasia set for Christmas. I asked for it specifically. I got up early this morning, too early really, and watched it. The Boy woke up and watched the end with me. He was 5 when it came out, but even at 15 he remembers seeing it.

I have a longer post coming tonight or tomorrow talking about this past week. Aren't you excited?